Spirit in song

God Within sometimes speaks in melody, you know. Sometimes even boppy beats…

Music moves us to ecstatic expression, and it’s no mystery why- we are vibrational beings, and music is a vibrational medium. Literally, music moves our eardrums and the atoms therein, and the vibrations ripple into the rest of us, affecting our emotions with it. Every particle within us is sensing the tune and vibrating with the harmony of the songs we listen to. It’s important to choose music that has a positive and encouraging message more often than not.

May you have auspiciousness and causes of success, may you have the confidence to always do your best, may you take no effort in your being generous, sharing what you can, nothing more, nothing less, may you know the meaning of the word happiness, may you always lead from the beating in your chest, may you be treated like an esteemed guest, may you get to rest, may you catch your breath- and may the best of your today’s be the worst of your tomorrows, and may the road less paved be the road that you follow – well here’s to he hearts that you’re gonna break, here’s to the lives that you’re gonna change, here’s to the infinite possible ways to love you, I want you to have it! Here’s to the good times we’re gonna have, you don’t need money, you got a free pass, here’s to the fact that I’d be sad without you, I want you to have it all. ” – Jason Mraz

Music defines time periods of our lives as well, since we easily tie memories to who we were with and what our life was like when we were hearing a song often. We hear artist’s lyrics, and the words resonate with us, so we buy into that artist. These lyrics are literal magic spells, allowing us to bob our head or sing along and express those feelings deep within us aching to be validated and heard. How many times has a song moved you to cheer up, rage out, croon your love or cry?

All I do is win, win, win, no matter what, got money on my mind I can’t never get enough, and every time I step up in the building everybody hands go up! And they stay there..” – DJ Khaled

Song and dance is the greatest magic ever conceived, and some of the most powerful sorcery in mass existence. Ever heard of a tribal rain dance? Consider how our evolutionary theory states that nothing that has no value or that grants no advantage would be passed along through generations, especially a behavior. Yet tribal song and dance to bring rain or blessings stretches through all time – so by that standard, there must be actual magic power (manifestation) within it to shape the world and divine the future. Indeed, song and chants are integral parts of every religion worldwide – as those close to the divine know its inherent power.

Amazing Grace, how sweet the sound, that saved a wretch like me, I once was lost but now am found, was blind, but now I see.

In a world where it is all YOUR Creation, the music we hear and that becomes popular either for the collective or individually is an echo of our inner. As the inner shifts, so do our music preferences. I’m sure many of you can relate to experiences like mine where I’ve had music show up out of the blue whose lyrics perfectly matched what I was going through in my life. Often, I’d discover a new artist whose whole album became an anthem for my life during transition times. Radio stations overplay certain artists or hits because of the mass requests for one song being echoed across many hearts. The phenomenon is happening still today, visit iTunes Radio or Spotify and see for yourself- the popular songs are an expression of how our collective feels.

I can’t give you everything, you know I wish I could, I’m so high at the moment, I’m so caught up in this, yeah, we’re just young dumb and broke, but we still got love to give.” – Khalid

Why don’t you just meet me in the middle, I’m losing my mind just a little, so why don’t you just meet me in the middle?” – Zedd

We used to live on Instagram, worryin’ bout who all gives a damn, bout where we’ve been and where we ended up. Then I met you and you met me and all the rest is history, an epiphany that all we need is us … it’s like one two three just as easy as can be, just the way you look at me you make me smile, ain’t no need to complicate it, we both know that’s overrated, we’ve been there it’s safe to say it ain’t our style…” Simple – Florida Georgia Line

I theorize that Spirit is speaking to each of us through music, especially radio. You’ll have to verify for yourself, dear reader.

Don’t stop believing! Hold on to that feeling!” – Journey ( a refrain that Spirit tells everyone at some point!)

Even having your music library on shuffle, with careful attention, can become a medium for spirit to build you a narrative, send a message, or offer encouragement. Quite like Bumblebee of Transformers fame, Spirit lives in playlists of all devices, and will begin sending you words and feelings you need t express aloud and validate in your emotional body. It is most apparent if given any sort of randomized control, to the willing listener who accepts that Spirit is really there reaching into our realm to send us love and hope and encouragement.

“…We’re on Assignment, bodies on consignment, return ’em to the circus, and what is the purpose, what is the purpose? And would you believe it, would you believe it if you knew what you were for and how you became so informed, bodies of info, performing such miracles, I am a miracle, made up of particles, and in this existence, I’ll stay persistent, and I’ll make a difference, and I will have lived it…. ” – Aloha Ke Akua, by Nahko.

Once I came to realize this beautiful meaning behind the synchronicity, I fell in love with music all over again. I felt comforted, encouraged, supported and understood by God, and what a difference it has made. I went from being saddened by love songs to being romanticized by them, seeing them as being dedicated TO me from my higher aspect, as a reminder of how loved I am. As I sang along, often while glancing into my car visor while driving, I realized I was bespelling myself at the direction of God within, a sorcerous form of tricking me into genuinely loving myself – and then I realized, I was singing love songs TO God, as well, a way to reciprocate the great love Spirit allowed to flow through me in song.

There’s a hope that’s waiting for you in the dark, you should know you’re beautiful just the way you are, and you don’t have to change a thing, the world can change its heart, no scars to your beautiful, we’re stars and we’re beautiful…” – Alessia Cara

How would your favorite songs take on new meaning if you were hearing them from your Higher perspective?

I have died everyday, waiting for you, Darling don’t be afraid, I have loved you for a thousand years, I’ll love you for a thousand more… And all along I believed I would find you, Time has brought your heart to me, I have loved you for a thousand years, I’ll love you for a thousand more...” – Christina Perri

I was reminded of this powerful magic that music has, yesterday when I stumbled upon a new artist who, yes, has an album written especially about my life right now. Everything from “Every Mile Mattered” about the past year of travel to “Slow Down” about babies growing up too fast, to one of my new favorites , “Dear me”, which beautifully sings about a letter written to the self during hard times. This song resonates with me deeply because I’m creating a book series that is interactive and has the reader write letters to herself and others as part of a process for self therapy. I’ve found the processes I’m sharing incredibly transformational and want to bring their healing power to anyone else in need of self love and encouragement.

Dear me, this is a letter to the girl I used to be, dear me, there are some things that you should know. It’s not my intention to embarrass or to shame you, what’s inside the rear view mirror is closer than it appears… we do the best that we know how with what we have been given, and the difference between you and I is I’ve been given time.. in time, you’ll see….

… And there is nothing you could do to separate you from the love of God who made you just exactly as He meant to, and you cannot imagine all the places you’ll see Jesus, but you’ll find him everywhere you thought he wasn’t supposed to go, so go-

…. And love, love, love, love, like it’s your own blood…. as you have been loved…” – Nichole Nordeman

I encourage you, to listen to ALL your favorite songs in a new light. Listen as though they are love songs from the Universe to You. Every one, a special dedication to You. Yes, some songs will have snarky meanings … your higher is as sassy as mine I’m sure. 🙂 Listen for the messages, the nudges, the subtle hints and warnings. It’s all around us everywhere. More of us are awakening to the divinity in everything. It’s no use to be woke if appreciation and wonder aren’t allowed into your experience as often as possible.

Life is a beautiful musical. Belt out a chorus or two to the God in the mirror. Let the love in a song sent from the universe lighten your heart.


And love, love, love, love, as you have been loved. ❤️

A philosophy of pets

Today I’d like to get back to a topic I know lots of you followed my FB page for, one I have literally a whole lifetime of experience with- our pets.

Beautiful friends and helpmeets, our pets are a pure experience upon the Earth. I’ve had pets as long as I’ve made memories. Many dear soul friends have cycled into my life. I could go on for years about how wonderful my life has been because of them. In fact as I write my Wally dog lounges in my lap, my support through the process of baring my thoughts and soul to you through this message.

There are two aspects I’ve been pondering about them. The first is, on a literal level they are enslaved to us, and that says much about the state of our society today.

During their youth, we take them away from their family and demand they adjust to ours. We train them to do as we wish and punish them or exile them if they disobey. If found outside alone, we deliver them to a facility that imprisons them until another slave owner adopts them. All their life, they will never really choose what to do and where to go, unless they run away and forever hide from people. Even then, their choices to sustain themselves are limited in our concrete world.

Animals are enslaved to us, and I feel like our pets create an equal enslavement of us to them. They can’t roam at will and can’t possibly provide for them self in our altered world safely. So in a way they create this in us- they hold our emotional needs in a way that isn’t provided anywhere else, (and that we aren’t providing from within ourselves) and we can’t roam at will once we have pets either for we must go home to feed them and let them out, or have someone else enslaved to that task.

I’m not offended at the thought of our mutual codependency- long have I said, I’m Wally’s butler because I let him in and out like a doorman, bring him foods and stroke his ego all day.

(Side note- He’s only five pounds so it’s 90% ego – fun fact, a dogs ego is four pounds, which is why big dogs are the most pandering of the bunch at only 2% ego 😉

I rather like serving Wally, he’s quite opinionated on any topic I discuss with him, yet tends to agree with me 😉 in fact I can only recall one debate I lose with him on a regular basis:

Me:”No, they do not need to pet you today and tell you how cute you are.”

Wally: “SNORT SNEEZE” *trots over to the other people*

Me:*long sigh as I follow* “why can’t we agree to disagree and you just stay here beside me?”

Beyond this drive to bless everyone with a dose of himself, he is a perfect companion. )

Wally makes me laugh all the time and sniffles, snorts and sneezes when I discuss him or talk to him, overall very entertaining. He plays in short bouts, and loves strong pets all over. His favorite scratch spot is his elbows, because he’s odd like that. He absolutely hates baths and hides when I turn water on, and he refuses to give me kisses even when I beg, and dodges my attempts to kiss his face. I used to think it was a dominance thing, but now I have realized the little lovely bugger knows that stolen kisses are worth more because I’ve worked at it. He has seen that pandering dogs have my friendship but not my adoration. He settles for nothing less than my utter devotion.

When you look at it, our pets are extensions of ourselves. How could they not be, in a world of Creation with each of us as the Creator? So it’s no surprise we resemble them, and of course the more we are in each other’s company the more we will be like each other.

It’s a safe bet that after these years of adventure together, he and I share some similarities….

The other aspect I’ve been pondering is, if everything is a creation, what do pets represent? We have to tend to them everyday so they survive, and train them so they don’t wreck our shared spaces or our other relationships by being overwhelming, we are enslaved to them and have to take responsibility if they act out ….

So I developed a theory that our pets are physical manifestations of Emotions that we can’t handle holding inside us any more.

I believe pets are manifestations of Emotions that need daily special care and to be shown how to get along with all the other aspects of our life, and even kept apart from some aspects of our life, like our work environment or extended family functions.

I asked myself, what emotion would Wally represent then? What do I think of or feel about him? What do I feel when he is magnetized near? How did I feel before he came into my life?

To me, Wally is ideal. Portable, well trained and polite. When I got him as a puppy he looked like a bobble head doll, and he got his name because to me he looked like a cartoon come to life, a real live toy, a Walt Disney drawing- a Wally dog.

So, I evaluated my feelings about idealism- I’ve always been an idealist, yet since adulthood I’ve felt resentment over everything not being ideal. It’s quite easy to say I couldn’t hold my idealism in. My past two dogs (15 years of dog) have been really ideal for me, so it’s my belief that my idealism that I couldn’t handle inside me anymore, manifested outside of me so it could be taken care of and appreciated by me.

If this theory proves out to others, that means every pet owner is an owner of a physical manifestation of an emotion they themselves deeply feel and can not express. Taking care of the emotion in our outer world is a way to calm the emotional need in our inner world.

By this theory, when a pet leaves us, it can mean we are ready to hold that emotion and care for it within. It doesn’t mean we have to, as often we miss their bright addition to our lives as souls in and of themself. It Does mean we can make a choice to have a pet, or choose to live without one and embrace the aspects of life that not being tied to pets (or so Many pets) allows.

This theory also explains the old saying, “Don’t have kittens,” or, “Don’t have a cow” which means Calm down and stop having dramatics.

I’ve loved all the experiences I’ve had tending to my many pets, often more than the experiences I’ve had around other people. I’ve always been able to intuit animals feelings, and have had great success communicating with them throughout my life. I appreciate the experiences greatly, and I know I will always have pets and share my home with these Feelings Made Real. The feeling every pet has made real within me, has been Love- which is the Godforce itself in action.

I have noticed that people who do not have any pets are either extremely emotionally healthy or more likely have disconnected from emotions entirely. Those that have an excessive amount of animals, are usually excessively emotional. This is no judgement of character by any means, although now I am with just Wally, at one point we owned 23 beasts, sooo..)

My theory needs experiments and results to solidify more. So I’d love feedback from pet owners who are curious about what their animals represent, especially pet owners who are very in tune with how they feel and can label each subtle feeling from another.

To test this theory, ask these questions:

What emotion do you have about your favorite pets? What emotion were you experiencing strongly and having to suppress, or what emotion was getting unmanageable within you when you first manifested them into your life?

What emotions do you experience just before they begin paying close attention to you or wander up on their own?

If there was an emotional state that each pet represents for you, what would it be?

It can take a while to evaluate. Since we manifest in real time, become aware of what topics you discuss with others and how you feel when your pet comes right up to you. It’s especially useful to note what you’re feeling and thinking when a pet comes up from elsewhere and ‘demands’ food, because that would relate to the feeling being strong within your energy, and needing external support because You’re feeling that emotion being suppressed or unsupported within You, thereby manifesting that emotion needing to be fed. I’ve noticed cats are easier to pinpoint than dogs because they aren’t pack imprinted, making it clearer to notice Your emotional state when they do feel pulled to you. Dogs tend to hang around their person’s energy field regardless, which says to me the emotions they represent are probably felt more often.

Please comment below if this resonates with you, and if you test this theory and have results to share, or if you have any questions about anything in the universe, please write to


As always, I’m patiently awaiting your consult.


Empaths, Narcissism and the relationship dynamics of imprinting

Empathy: knowing exactly how another feels in any set of circumstances, usually by virtue of having experienced the same circumstances

Empath: a person who easily picks up on how others feel emotionally, even without communication.

I am an Empath. I am an extra sensitive in many ways, and what defines an Empath is being able to pick up on other’s moods and feelings even when the other tries to hide it — sometimes without wanting to. I began wondering a few years ago why I and many others have this skill, so I began to research the psychology, psychic attributes and even the biology surrounding Empaths. What I found was fascinating, and led to me uncovering some deep truths that may help others with the same curiosity.

Biologically, we each have an electromagnetic energy field we emit that reaches several feet beyond our body. As newborns, this field picks up signatures from the fields of our caretakers. It’s part of the internal system (along with mirror neurons in the brain) that trains us to mimic adults so we can begin to survive on our own- to feed and clothe ourselves and remember dangers and how to avoid them. This is called imprinting. Being able to pick up on moods around us makes us better able to survive, to decide if we are safe and can relax or if we need to take action in some way. This means that our parents imprinted upon us by their relationship with each other and with us, “This is what Love looks like.” If they had bitter arguments, a breakdown in communication, violence or a divorce, we internalize it deep within our psyche and no matter how good our adult relationships begin, or our intention going into one, our imprinting begins to show up, a shadow of the past casting darkness on the present. Watching a parent get their feelings hurt and say nothing, sacrifice them self for the other without thanks or acknowledgement, being disrespected repeatedly without consequence, or turning to someone outside the marriage for fulfillment instead of having adult conversations within the relationship concerning needs and boundaries, becomes part of what we inherit. “This is what Love looks like, and what I should subconsciously expect of relationships.”

There are many events we have all experienced and internalized in our childhood that need to be evaluated from an adult perspective if we want to promote self esteem. (Such as, A parent or teacher saying “That’s wrong, that’s stupid” becomes internalized as “I’m wrong, I’m stupid.”) We take these on as judgements of our character and actual worth instead of a commentary on our actions, and in this way we erode our self esteem over time by repeating, “I’m wrong, I’m stupid, I’m worthless” to ourselves when we make mistakes.

(Meditation, Tapping therapy and shadow work are the only methods I’ve found that enabled me to stop that voice from deciding my moods for me.)

Empaths often become involved in relationships with Narcissists because of this imprinting. I discovered why after thoroughly researching Narcissists, and realizing that I am what is termed an “Echoist” – a person who has very low inherent self worth and relies on others to decide who and what they are. This term refers to Echo in the Greek mythology, who can only mimic others due to a cruel curse by Hera for the crime of incessant chatter.

(Empaths, who pick up other’s emotions and have trouble distinguishing their own, all fall on the scale of Echoism)

Narcissists and Empaths/Echoists are two sides of the same coin, neither of which spends well in relationships. We are created in the same manner, and it is my conclusion that it comes down to personal sensitivity and security as to how we develop either a narcissistic or empathic/echoistic personality. Narcissism is usually a male trait, because our culture disdains sensitive men, thus making a tendency for Narcissism when a sensitive boy has to shut down his feelings (disregard what you feel, feel how I tell you to) to “be a man“. This begins as early as age two by something as flippant as “hush up, boys don’t cry” being said to them.

Both Narcissists and Echoists saw parents who displayed, “My feelings are more important than yours,” and both answered “yes, ok” for survival. The difference is, a Narcissist internalized this as “Ok, Personal feelings must be made more important than other’s to make myself happy “ (because the parent’s personal feelings trumped theirs to make the parent ‘happy’ during that circumstance) and an Echoist internalized it as “Ok, Other’s feelings must be made more important than mine, to be accepted and make myself happy.” (Because the parent displayed anger, rejection and frustration when asserting a circumstance’s needs over the child’s)

You can see how this makes us dynamically magnetized to each other, and also how this sets Empaths up for always being taken advantage of.

Empaths/Echoists become super attuned to others, because the more we intuit about others the better we can react to them, and the better we can adjust ourselves to get their approval, and approval equals happiness for us. This ability, to tune into others, served us very well in connecting with our family, because by also having no personal boundaries or by not feeling secure enough to demand an inherent right to be ourself, we could easily adjust to be what THEY wanted. We internalized that in order to receive love and connection, we needed to be what others wanted, and that being fully ourself was a way to experience personal rejection and family disharmony.

Narcissists learned to disconnect completely from how others feel, except in cases where they found they could manipulate how others felt in order to get approval or their agenda through. Narcissists learned to DO as others wanted, through Overt manipulation tactics (such as Love bombing, brown nosing or excessive gifts) where Empaths/Echoists learned to BE what others wanted through denial of self (never setting boundaries and having a loosened sense of self, such as pretending interests in what others like and giving time to doing them just to spend time together) and using Covert manipulation tactics.

Neither of us have ever learned healthy ways to communicate wants and needs or get positive attention, because we never saw it displayed or had it taught to us.

We are the same in that we have had events happen in childhood that left us with a deep feeling of abandonment and rejection, yet we have different ways of managing it. We are both trapped in self concepts of fear and deep insecurity, and we are both extremely needy, because our imprint of Love is so dysfunctional and because we both feel we were neglected and dismissed totally by our parents.

To give an example of how the same type of event can create completely different reactions and coping strategies, I’ll share some insight I’ve found in my own shadow work.

My father was a Narc, loud and demanding. My mother was a wounded and sensitive woman, “trapped” in a marriage all her life that brought her deep unhappiness. After many years with Narcissists, sensitives learn that Narcissistic tactics work well in getting their own needs met. When I came along late in life, she envied the attention my dad gave me. At age five she told me my father never wanted me and wanted to abort me, and that he would have preferred a male to help on the farm. My father came in later that day and yelled at me about the toys and books I had strewn out. I internalized these events as, when someone yells at me it’s because they wish I wasn’t alive, are angry I exist, and I was born all wrong to receive love (gender wise). My father rarely interacted with me beyond yelling, and after yelling he often went weeks without so much as a hello, but that gave me time and space to forgive him as I felt loveable when he didn’t tear me down.

What this means for me? When somebody yells at me about something they perceive I’ve done wrong, I’m triggered into near suicidal thoughts almost immediately, and the feeling of self hatred used to take days to shift away from. When I get upset, I tend to retreat and avoid, giving the silent treatment often, because I want to avoid being made to feel that way again and I need time to forgive and reset my self esteem.

My husband, on the other hand, had a childhood going through many many foster homes. (23 in ten years) When adults yelled at him, they were very direct about his actions. He picked up that if he didn’t change exactly according to what they yelled about, he would soon be shipped off. He came to see yelling- one of the few interactions he would have with foster parents- as an act of love. To him, being told loudly exactly what he needed to do to remain in the presence of a caretaker (and the availability of love and survival) was one of the few forms of love he was offered. For him, yelling is an expression of care, because once his guardian didn’t care, there was no communication at all, and then he would find himself abandoned and sent away.

So yelling = love to him, hatred to me, while prolonged silence = allowing space to love myself and forgive others for me, and displays hatred or lack of love and a signal the relationship is over to him. The same event of yelling or silence becomes filtered through our imprints, causing VERY different internal thoughts and feelings and therefore external reactions.

As you can imagine, we had a FUN relationship.

Narcs are people who embody “show me I’m loveable, by giving me love- I prove my worth by receiving love” while empaths embody “when I give you love, you’ll show me I’m loveable – I prove I’m worthy when others accept my love”. This comes from different perceptions of the same types of family dysfunction. Both are prone to manipulation tactics, because they are learned methods of receiving the love you are coming into the relationship begging to be shown. We are the same, we just developed different coping mechanisms, neither of which is healthy or balances well within relationships. One makes others feel better at the cost of being unauthentic and makes the self feel worse. One makes others feel worse at the price of making the self feel better.

Empaths/Echoists are prone to toxic people because of their inherent lack of selfishness to even consider that it’s healthy and proper to set boundaries AND still be giving. It’s healthy and proper to see the good AND the shadows in people and use discernment without judgement to choose to not allow them to take advantage of us. We have to learn to love others in ways that don’t make us love ourselves less, or we are in a self defeating cycle. You must know and respect your boundaries or yes, you will get taken advantage of. They will take advantage of you not sharing those unknown boundaries, and cross them.

Narcissists are less prone to realizing OR overcoming any of their shadow, because the pattern for them is to see that the only issues must be in the other person, and then move on to new energy to manipulate. Self reflection and inner work don’t usually appeal to them at all, unless they can get their energy needs met while doing so. Personalities built upon “show me love for worth” don’t fare well entering a space where they have to face everything unloveable about themself, because it threatens identity on an even deeper level than for an empath. An empath/echoist has motive to change- “doing this will make your love more acceptable, thus making you more worthy” versus how a Narcissistic pattern internalizes and perceives suggestions as, “you aren’t worthy of love unless you change yourself this way”, and the patterned responses when faced with self growth issues create goals for an empath to achieve and walls for a narc to break down. It’s not exactly easy for anyone to admit to faults and issues, but less so for narcissistic types, since it is based upon other’s needs and wants for respect taking priority, something not in their imprinting of how to get love.

Narcissistic people are less prone to realizing change, because the imprinting for them once their energy supply becomes wise to their tactics, is to move on to new energy to manipulate. Once an empath/Echoist has boundaries they can affirm in a loving manner, these narcissistic types simply move on. You literally won’t connect. The polarity of how the empath approaches relationships shifts, so what they attract and allow shifts. Often, embodying what an Empath deems as selfishness is what’s required to end a toxic relationship for an Empath.

Shifting your imprinting and how you relate to others is certainly NOT easy or something that happens overnight. It involves going into the darkest parts of yourself and admitting fault about reactions and misperceptions repeatedly. It involves becoming someone who constantly watches their thoughts and who is able to control them self into becoming non reactive, while not numbing yourself against feeling. This means becoming aware of patterns and triggers which will continually pop up over seemingly frivolous things.

Sent into a rage because some guy cut you off in traffic? Address your anger over powerlessness and disrespect that actually caused you hurt and grief and danger in your past.

Parents were very busy and uninvolved when you were young? It’s probably contributing heavily to your present day depression and feelings of low self worth. Go within and rationalize to your inner child self that lack of time never necessarily meant lack of love.

Having crying jags and supreme irritation lately because of the news about school shootings? Enter a heart space within and search your memories for buried feelings about betrayal by neglectful or ignorant adults who were supposed to keep you safe, and address the fear, anger and powerlessness you personally picked up because of bullies, abuse, exclusion or rejection in school that you experienced.

Once you’ve found a memorable event, or “Shadow” that’s haunting your moods, emotional stability and relationships still, go within that memory movie and sit down with your child self after it plays. Talk to the part of you that was too young to understand adult behavior, the one who internalized these events and now causes you to react childishly and act out in ways that cause you to feel bad or have breakdowns in relationships, when those same feelings get triggered now. Sit there with that child self and allow yourself to actually feel those feelings deeply instead of suppressing them. Love that part of you. Explain things to child-you from an adult perspective — that your parents did their best but really didn’t know what they were doing. Explain that the circumstances caused them to treat you that way, or their ignorance did. Tell your child self what you need to hear — that You is kind, You is smart, and You is important!

Parents are good people who mimic what was done to them by their parents, with only slight tweaks as culture has changed going back many generations. This is part of the whole “forgive them for they know not what they do” spoken of by a wise man long ago. (If you’re a parent like me, you need to forgive yourself for unknown imprints given to your own children, too)

This is called Shadow work, and it is hard and demanding and takes time, persistent motivation and self love to do.

Narcissists and Empaths attract each other because vibrationally we feel the same: not convinced we are love able without using our learned manipulation tactics.

Empaths later tie selfishness up with thinking highly of oneself, and subconsciously reject both, because we’ve wrapped them together due to our bad relations with Narcissists and others who have an overinflated sense of self esteem.

It’s entirely possible and healthy to be selfish in certain situations- in fact it’s part of setting healthy boundaries and demanding respect from others, and shows self love in that it asserts that you deserve relationships you don’t have to completely change who you are to be in. It’s also very healthy to think highly of oneself, for without solid self esteem we never move into our true power, because we place our desires below everyone else’s at all times, and drain our self motivation away.

What can you do about this?

When you find yourself having poor communication or troubling relationships, remember:

What I see and judge in others is what I judge and reject within. I would not have strong emotions unless the situation was in some way touching on an internal trigger.

For instance in the case of witnessing Narcissistic types: you see selfishness as completely bad and wrong, and feel hurt when you see it displayed, this means you reject it, and reject the part of yourself that needs you to be selfish and demand respect from others by setting boundaries. Selfishness is a part of a healthy self loving person who places boundaries and honors them despite how it makes others feel. If you continually reject selfishness that means you’ll alway act selflessly, and be taken advantage of and only attract those who are wholly and unhealthfully selfish. If you want to attract someone who has a healthy balance of selfish- and selfless-ness, you have to achieve that within yourself.

“Shadow work”- illuminating what darkness in your past clouds your present interactions, and thus your future if you don’t become aware of it, can unearth your issues and triggers and lead you to coming to know your boundaries in a relationship.

The method I use is also described in Teal Swan’s books and videos.

You can find more detailed information about Imprinting, relationship dynamics and the Imago Effect in the book by Harville Hendrix, Getting the Love you Want.

Jayson Gaddis has a good podcast on this subject too, the Smart Couple Podcast.

Tapping therapy, written about by Nick Ortner in several books is a Wonderful method for clearing emotional blocks and building self esteem. (Brad Yates on YouTube is like an awesome Mr. Rogers for hurting grownups)

Journaling letters to parents expressing our feelings for imprinting that doesn’t serve us is great too, for releasing frustration, embarrassment and resentment at self for “being this way”. (Not letters to send, for our parents are a product of their childhood, so on and so forth, a ‘karmic tie’, if you will, that you as a sensitive are here to shine a light on and heal for future generations.)

Creating an actual list of what you NEED in a relationship is an invaluable tool for becoming aware of what your boundaries should be. It also gives us a way to be able to communicate our needs directly instead of holding partners to expectations they are unaware of. To do this, look at a time in your life where you were in a happy relationship and performing at your best, and ask how and what needs were being met that created the conditions for you being your best self. Decide which of those conditions contributed the most to your success at that time, and evaluate where your boundaries should be to give you the opportunity to be your best and happy self again.

MEDITATION is by far the greatest tool in the discovery of self knowledge necessary to begin to create healthier relationships. Just ten minutes a day will lead to amazing changes within.

Finally, educate yourself. There are tons of videos available on YouTube or podcasts you can put on while relaxing, being artistic, cooking, driving or doing housework to help you find tidbits of knowledge that will lead to self knowledge and a better understanding of how to have positive relationships.

As always, I’m available for consults as well :).

Namaste and Blessed Be, dear ones.

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